Trying To Say To You, But I Feel Blue...

Yeah but, well, what I mean is, what I meant to say is...
And there it is, you're back peddling, you're rehashing, you're trying to explain yourself, but she's not getting it. You've used up all of your emotions, (all 2 of them) and now you're just frustrated. Why is it every time you give her an answer, you have to explain yourself? Or, you have to answer her again, because she doesn't really believe you the first time.

Then you look around and realize that all her 'friends' are like that. Her whole life she's been explaining herself to people who for some reason need to be validated ...over and over...

In certain situations, there are people who always require an explanation. Either because they're really stupid, or they don't believe you. Whatever the case, why hang around them? Why keep them as friends?

"Hey, do you like pants?"
"No."
"Well, why don't you like these pants, what's wrong with these pants? So you don't like these pants on me, or you just don't like these pants?"

In a perfect world, you shouldn't have to explain yourself every time you answer a question. 'No' or 'Yes' should be enough. Now in some cases, for the sake of conversation you may want to continue with your response, but you shouldn't be expected to justify your answer to your friend.

You want friends that believe you, not 'friends' that talk shit behind your back or lie to your face. Or friends that pretend they don't like your boyfriend then look for the perfect moment to move in for the kill... Friends that only call you when they want something... these aren't 'friends'

You may find it necessary to surround yourself with as many people as possible to feel 'wanted' or 'cool' but you're only inviting more bullshit into your lives. Sure, go out and make as many friends as possible, but don't be surprised or heartbroken when you find out that half of them aren't who or what they say they are.

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